Wow it has been a while. I hope everyone had a wonderful Christmas and New Year.
Since I last wrote I have spent time getting to know my first grandchild. The time spent with him helped me to understand things about my own life in a completely different way.
The innocence of a child makes you re evaluate how you feel about almost everything in your own life. He helped me remember what it is like to see something for the first time, to experience the joy of achieving something for the first time and to see everything without fear.
Watching him learn to move independently, to see the joy on his face when music moved him, and the happiness when he saw me first thing in the morning, was without doubt the most incredible experience. Something I had not felt since my own children were born.
You forget as they grow older what it felt like when they were small and just learning to make their own way in this world. My grandson brought those memories back with waves of emotion that shook me to my core. When you have your own children you think that nothing will ever make you feel that love again. When you meet your grandchild for the first time and start to get to know them, all that love pours back into your heart and soul.
Just sitting here writing these words, the emotions are so strong that I have tears. I had forgotten what true love felt like. What a world this would be if everyone could feel this beautiful emotional response all the time. Far too many of us keep these emotions bottled up, afraid to let it out, afraid for it to be rejected, closed off to the very basic essence of life.
It has taken some time for all these emotions to settle, my world has been changed forever. I look at the photos I have of him and smile to myself, what has this child done to me? I had closed off my heart for so long, it was cold and it was empty. Now once again it is full and overflowing.
I understand not everyone can have children or grandchildren, but for every one of us there is something that can trigger this deep love. One thing that reaches out to our hearts and in an instant transform us from fear to love.
You will know when you find yours, it will wash over you with a power that you have no control over. Every molecule of your body will respond and in that moment your life will transform. You will look at everything with new eyes, with renewed hope and with love. Everything will change in that one instance of recognition and you will never be the same again.
Every moment is a choice, every moment you have the means in which to transform your reality. Every moment you can choose to allow love in or keep it out. Every moment you can take the hard road or the easy road. Every moment your reality changes, every moment! Every decision you make changes your path.
Choose the one that moves your heart, choose the one that triggers the feelings of lightness, of hope and of expectation. Choose the one that brings tears of joy, the one that makes you stop and go wow.