A New Era

Well it has been a week of freaky energy. One minute I feel positive and uplifted, the next I am thrown down into the depths again. The energy of the new moon has thrown things up in the air and allowed it all to fall mish mashed all over the place as it lands.

The stress and energy required to keep myself on an even keel throughout the financial and health issues that seem to not be getting anywhere, has taken it’s toll this week. I will not be able to stay in my home. That has become apparent and no matter what I try or how hard I try it will not change this situation.

So now I am faced with the task of deciding which of my possessions are important enough to keep and which can be sold, given away or thrown away. I have tried since December to keep the rent and bills paid by selling my beautiful crystals and books but it is not enough. I cannot sell enough to cover what I need anymore and I have no one left to borrow from.

This puts me in a position that I have never been in before. I have always made do before, always just had enough to get by and always paid my bills. The thought of not being able to keep up with these is upsetting me more and more each week. I have income protection and total permanent disability insurance within my superannuation and have applied for both, but as those who have dealt with insurance companies know, they are quick to take your money but unbelievably slow to give it back when needed.

I had hoped that something would have come through by now, but they are slowly going through my applications and I will find out something soon, sadly not in time to save my home.

I am however taking this as a sign that this home is no longer for us. We have been here for just over 4 years and in that time we have lost our rabbit, our cat, my last car and both our jobs as well as my health. The last two years have been testing to say the least but I am still breathing so cannot complain too much.

This situation has now given us an opportunity to begin again. My son and I have been through a lot in the last two years and now with having to sell almost everything we own we are faced with a complete new beginning. We have decided to move in with my parents for as long as they can handle us 🙂 until we get back on our feet.

We need this time to make some decisions without the possibility of eviction hanging over us. My health cannot improve with all this stress and although there is no cure for rheumatoid arthritis I hope that one day I will be able to live without constant pain.

I actually get excited by the thought of beginning again. Most of our belongings are second hand, full of the energy of those who owned them before and the energy of not being wanted. I had not thought of this before but in buying second hand furniture and other things we are buying items that have been given away or sold because they are of no use anymore. This energy stays with the item and transfers it to the new owners.

Imagine living with the thought that you are not wanted or needed anymore. How would you feel? What sort of energy signature would you give out? Living surrounded by all that negative energy and having it soaking into my and my sons energy fields has been heavy and suffocating. so now we have the opportunity to bring new energy into our lives with, when we can afford it and have somewhere to put it, new furniture and household items.

Because of this reason the things I am selling are being sent to their new owners with love and the hope that they are loved and cherished. They are sent knowing that they were wanted but need to move onto others who will love them as we have. It still makes it very hard to decide what to keep and what to let go of. We will be moving a from a three bedroom house into two bedrooms at my parents home and so must be very careful with what we take.

Only those things that I cannot bear to part with will be staying, the rest will be sent onwards with love and gratitude. Remember when you buy second hand goods to bring them into your life with love, clear and cleanse them of the old energy and welcome them into your life with joy. Everything has energy whether you think so or not so being careful with what you bring into your space will ensure that negative energy is kept to a minimum.

Be aware of how you feel when you buy and sell and allow that energy to dictate whether or not you accept it into your life. Use your feelings rather than the visual look of the items to decide whether or not they are for you. How you feel around something is much more important than what something looks like and always will be.

Here’s to a brand new start, renewed health and optimism and the start of a new era.

Margaret ❤

 

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Message From My Higher Self

In order to realise your dreams and move forward, you need to begin within. Your ideals and ideas are not configured into the one space and so you need to rearrange, as it were, the thoughts, ideas and ideals into a space of balance. A type of merging of what you want, while working on why you went through what you have and why, the lessons you have learned and the reasons for them.

Why do you feel less than others? Why do the opinions of others mean so much to you? Their opinions are not who you are and you have spent far too many years fitting yourself into the space that others have formed for you.

This is not the authentic you, this is not who you are or who you were meant to be. You have wandered so far off your path that you have lost your way and have become reliant on allowing others to lead you, and lead you they have. Not always into your perfect space and not always in your best interests.

Releasing and letting go of all you have held onto for so many years is the way out of this confining space. You must start within, that is the only place to begin and all will fail without this work. Do not fear this going within, for it is a path chosen by you in order to to find your way back to authenticity.

The real you aches to be released. You know this. You have thoughts and ideas of what you should look like, what you should be doing and how you should be living. Yet you still push it all away because it does not fit with the thoughts and ideas of those around you. You have allowed far too many people to take over the running of your life and in order to progress you must take back your power.

We understand the human difficulties you face weigh heavily on your mind and know that this prohibits you from relaxing  enough to allow healing. We also know that you do have the power within you to overcome this and so much more.

Look back at the life you have lived, how many times have you overcome disaster, poverty, depression, anger, panic and fear? Then realise that things always work out. You will do so again but it is up to you to learn this lesson for one last time in order to release it and let it go. If you do not then it will be repeated many times over until you understand and move forward.

This is not a forecast of doom and gloom, you are quite capable. More than you realise and comparing yourself to others over the years has worn down your confidence and your get up and go. This is why you procrastinate so much, you fully expect to do the work and have it either taken away from you or have it all fall apart and have to begin again.

We know you tire of beginning again and have no wish to repeat over and over again. This however is your choice and only you can change this. You know this to be true. We will assist as you ask but the work must be done by you. You have to want to change. You have to want to give up your past and all that it entails. You have to want to move into success.

Your intention in all of this is what is important. Know that you are more than capable. we repeat this because it is important and it is something that you push away and yet you desire it so much. Rely now upon your own inner thoughts for they are what rule your life, not what others think. What they think or do is their choice and what they mirror upon you is their own feelings of failure that they have no desire to take ownership of.

Reflect this back to where it has come from and look at your own authentic self and see the truth. We only wish for you to live as you wish to and regardless of the choices you make, we will guide and assist you. If you still choose to follow the path of the past we will be with you, but here you will become stuck.

You will not make any progress upon your path until you make the changes needed. This is your moment to alter the path you are on and to make the huge changes that weigh so heavily upon your mind and heart. Know that they are important and that you will survive and flourish when you so choose. It is your choice and choose you must. Think carefully and follow your inner most thoughts as this is the way for you.

We are here and we love you and we will always love you.

Margaret ❤

 

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Feeling The Feelings

Today is the end of the third week of my treatment for rheumatoid arthritis. The new weekly tablet seems not to be working yet, but I was told that it would take at least four weeks. So I am very grateful that I am still taking steroids for the moment. Yesterday I almost forgot to take the steroid tablets, that’s how good I felt. Today I am a little sore. More than likely tried to do a little too much yesterday.

I also went to bed the night before, the night of the full moon, with the intention of feeling better and improving my health. It seems to have worked. I asked for myself to be cleared of negative energy and then went to sleep. I do feel somewhat more positive than I have for a while. Although the tablets are keeping some of the pain at bay for now, I still feel that I have turned a corner.

Intention has always been the most important part of any type of manifestation. Without it you are doomed to failure. If you cannot get your mind and heart into the right space, then no amount of wishing and hoping will bring you what you desire. Keeping your energy in the right frequency is at times, more difficult than it seems.

It can only take one small problem to have everything fall down around you. In order to keep my energy at a higher level than it has been for quite some time, I spent some time listening to some chakra clearing meditations and music in various frequencies. The frequencies I chose were 417 Hz to clear the negative energy of my space, followed by 528Hz to raise the vibration and create a more relaxed feeling in my home.

It is only when I make the effort to listen to music that I remember how it makes me feel and what it does to my body and my space. I tend to not find the time to do many things that are good for me and listening to music always has an amazing affect on me. I must make more of an effort to do the things that make me happy.

When you are happy things fall more easily into place. So the more you can do to keep that feeling, the happier you will be and the better your life will become. We all have off days, those times where things seem to fall apart but if you keep your focus on how you want to feel rather than how you are feeling, then your vibration  will elevate and make the space around you softer and more gentle.

Always remember that you are in control of how you feel. There is no one that can make you feel anything unless you allow it. When we are down and things fall apart, it is because we have allowed our energy to drop and let those around us have more control of our feelings. Take back control of your life. Let your feelings become the focus of your life.

Use the tools around you, such as music, poetry, and meditation to keep you at a place you want to be. Do not deny yourself the small pleasures in life. These are the things that make your life special. You may not have millions of dollars to spend on achieving your every dream, but the things you can do to make your space happier do not need to cost the earth to achieve.

Don’t put off until you have the money. Don’t put off until you are in the mood. Don’t put off until someone gives you permission. Do it now. Allow it now in your life, and most of all feel it now.

Margaret ❤

 

 

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Birth And Rebirth

Just when you think that the world is such a horrible place and there is no way you could ever be up and positive again, something beautiful happens.

This past week my first grandchild was born. The joy that this wonderful little boy has brought to my life is amazing. Where before I was down and almost ready to give up, hence no blog post last week 😦 , now I am more uplifted and feel joy every time I look at a photo of him.

He unfortunately lives a two hour plane flight away from me, so I have yet to see him face to face and hold him. So for now until I can afford to go up and see him I have to make do with photos and skype sessions.

The energy that this child has raised within my life is so special. I am amazed at how precious and beautiful he is and how my son and daughter in law have made this wonderful creature. You tend to forget what it is like when your own children are grown. so seeing the peaceful little face while he sleeps brings back so many memories of when my own boys were born.

I am sitting here with emotional tears of joy falling down my face as I write. I was reminded the other day by one of my other sons, that now I am a Grandmother I am officially old. I have no problems with being old if if means I am to welcome more perfect beings like this one into my world.

This child represents a new beginning for me. the birth of something wonderful and fulfilling and the start of the second half of my life. As I add Grandmother to the list of who and what I am, it makes me sit and think more carefully about the life I have and the life I wish to live. How can I make sure that I am a special part of his life? How can i work it that I spend quality time with him? All these thoughts are flooding my mind and as I desperately search for the answers I need, I remember to relax and allow spirit and the universe to arrange things in their own natural way.

I am blessed to have such a special event occur in my life. It has taken many years before my little family was ready to grow and now was the perfect time for it to happen.

Always remember that when you feeling the lowest you think you could possibly go, that there will be something around you to raise you up again. Never, no matter how hard it is, allow the darkness to keep you from seeing the joy that can unfold. For it is always there and all it takes is for you to suspend the darkness for one instant and allow yourself to see another point of view.

Margaret ❤

 

 

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Starting Point

Well I now have a diagnosis and a new beginning point from which to launch into a new life. I have Rheumatoid arthritis. There is no cure only containment. It means a completely different lifestyle to the one I have lived for the last 56 years. It means tablets, drugs, constant blood tests, xrays, ultrasounds, bone scans. Time spent at the doctors and the specialist. Everything I dislike about health.

I actually felt a little special. When I was being examined by the Rheumatologist she called in a new registrar just to look at my hands. Apparently my inflammation was something of a wonder to both of them. Where there should be knuckles there is a lot of fluid and tiny little bumps that indicate where my knuckles actually are. My feet and ankles are swollen, my knees are worse. The pain in my body after sleeping is so bad that it takes me a few hours to be able to move around in a normal way. Too much rest it seems stiffens up my body to the point that it gets stuck, so bedtime has become somewhat of a nightmare.

I get very tired very easily but the thought of what I wake up to each morning makes me delay sleep for as long as I am able. The specialist assures me that we can control this and eventually if things work out I can go into remission. So many others do, it is just a matter of finding the right treatment. The word she used to describe my arthritis was seropositive. I had to look it up when I got home. It means more severe with more joint damage, disability and inflammation outside of the joints.

It seems when I do something I always take it to the next level. I was expecting the diagnosis, although not quite as severe as that, and while I was prepared I was not prepared for the emotions that have overtaken me since yesterday afternoon.

I cried in the room with the specialist, and I cried when I went to Centrelink today to organize a different payment to the job seeking one I am now on. My age before was a barrier to finding work, as I have been looking since September but have not got even close to an interview. 40 years experience it seems does not count when you are female and over 50. Now until I am well into treatment and the severity of it all settles down, I cannot work. I always thought that there was something I could do but it seems everything at this stage will just cause damage. Having to put my illness on a job application will also get it thrown out before it is even looked at.

So government assistance is what I need at the moment. The job seeking payment I am on does not cover the cost of my monthly rent so I have been selling all my personal possessions to pay bills and utilities. Now the new payment will be more money but I was told today that it takes from 3 to 6 months to be approved. I will run out of things to sell before I even get the new payment. Which by my calculations still will not be enough to pay for everything.

So my breakdowns of the last two days have come from the fact that I have gone from relatively healthy with a job, independent and able to live on a tight budget but still able to manage, to being dependent on a government payment that does not cover basic living expenses and with no way of finding a job to supplement or replace that payment. I am relying on the support of everyone around me, a hard lesson for me to learn.

What I need to do for the moment is to find some focus and make the decisions that need to be made. I will eventually have to move out of my home. I cannot afford it at the moment and most definitely will not be able to afford it for the next 3 to 6 months. There will also be medication, constant trips to the hospital and doctors for which I will need petrol. There is no money for food, or any basic living expenses. So getting my head around all this, while trying to stay at least a little positive and hopeful is going to be difficult but not impossible.

The decisions I make over the next few months will be so very important for the direction that my life will now take. Once the treatment starts to take affect and the pain settles down a bit, I will be able to make better and more long lasting plans.

For now with the support of friends and family around me as well as the doctors and the hospital, I will take each day as it comes. There is a reason for everything and it is now my job to work out what I am to learn from this and how I can help others through my experiences. Not the path I expected my life to take and certainly not the way I had intended to live but I have what I am given and will do with it what I can.

This will teach me to take better care of myself, it will teach me to go within for personal healing and it will take me on a journey to find my inner strength and resilience. At times I feel like just sitting in a corner and fading away, but I will not allow myself to give in that easily. This is a mountain just waiting for me to climb it, and climb it I will.

I am not ready to give up on life yet, and although I may slip back down into depression as I go along this path, I will fight to reach the top of this mountain. I will succeed in living the life that I know I deserve and that I know I can attain.

Margaret ❤

 

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Eclipsing The Darkness

So it seems the latest eclipse has shifted the energy somewhat. I have felt over the last few days a movement of sorts. A lightening up of my mood and what feels like a shift in the road I have been traveling on for the last few years.

I had read earlier last week that the eclipse was the final hurdle to leaving 2016 behind, and for me it seems to be true. I have felt the strangeness, almost, of this new energy and it has an underlying sense of happiness and joy within it. I feel much more inclined to smile than scowl and things have not upset me as much as they have over the last two years.

It is like a gate or a door has opened and the future is shining brightly beyond. All it takes is a simple step to move forward into this newness and accept the new path that is opening before me. This new vibration of lightness is so very strange to me. After living through the darkness of the preceding couple of years, it makes me feel a bit wary. Is it going to last? Is it real what I am feeling? Will I be disappointed again?

It is almost like I am needing proof before I venture beyond the door. The fear of being swept back into the darkness is outweighing the joy that this energy is emitting. While I want to trust that this truly is a new beginning, past experience has me hesitating on the brink.

I am being offered what I have waited for. The opportunities are now before me and yet there is a sense of trepidation. If I run through the open door and fall flat on my face, will I retreat so far back into the darkness that I may never again find the light? What I must and will do, is take that first step and keep going. I cannot and will not allow this opportunity to pass me by. This is the chance for a whole new beginning, a chance to start again on a new path, with new people in a new direction.

Do you feel it? Do you understand what we are being offered here? We must at this time embrace the light that has speared through the darkness. To show us the way out of the depths of unhappiness and misery that we have, honestly, drawn to ourselves out of fear. We know we manifest our reality, we know that what we ask for, good or bad, arrives. Yet we still hesitate.

As the final door closes on the last cycle of nine years, it is time for us to emerge, ready, willing and able to do what we need to do in order to progress. Starting with embracing the feeling of happiness that now permeates the air around us. I feel it, more and more every day. It is lighter, it is happier and it is so very welcomed.

With the lighter energy we tend to focus more upon the good things in our lives, rather than the bad. In turn we draw to ourselves the better things in life. More of what we want instead of what we don’t want. I for one, have focused far too often on what was wrong in my life, rather than feeling gratitude for what I did have in my life. This new vibration has shown me that there is a better way and that I am quite capable of finding it.

For now I will bask in the feelings of happiness and joy, that I had almost forgotten over the last cycle. Memories of good times will now outweigh the memories of the bad times. This is a moment of understanding that has been trying to pierce my mind for so long now, and finally I have recognised it. I sit here, laughing to myself at how good I actually feel, and wonder how I could have allowed the darkness and density of fear take over my life for so long.

I now remember that I am strong, I remember that I am capable. I remember that life is meant to be fun, and I remember that life is what I make it. The circumstances around me are my doing and it is up to me to ensure that my reactions and responses to those circumstances are positive and uplifting.

Do you remember the light? Do you remember how good we had it? Do you remember why we let it all slip away?

Will you join me in rediscovering the joy of life?

Margaret ❤

 

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Resting On A Plateau

When you get so far on your spiritual journey and you feel that you have come to a standstill, what do you do? What do you think? At times I have felt like melting back to most of the population of this planet. Those who live one day at a time, one pay check at a time. Those whose most important decision of the day is what to have for dinner. Those who live with the status quo regardless of whether or not they agree with it. Those who have decided that saving the world is for someone else.

Is there a sense of freedom by not having the worlds very existence on your shoulders? Or are they just still asleep with no need nor want to wake up to what is actually happening around them. Is there less pressure on those who get up in the morning, go to work, come home, have dinner, go to bed and do it all again? Every single day.

Do they not feel the energy in the air around them? Do they not feel the magic that surrounds their very existence? Do they not feel the power that lies dormant within them, itching to be released and let loose upon a world so overdue for their input?

I sometimes wonder if they feel anything at all. I can watch a movie and it activates the empath within me. I cry at parts that have no need for tears, yet they spill forth simply and easily. I can look at a flowers petals unfurling as it blooms for the first time, and see the wonder and the beauty in it. I can sense the almighty power and presence that surrounds me constantly and look on in awe as it weaves its way through the lives of everyone around me.

No, I have no wish to return to the days before it all made sense. I have no desire to live like a rat in a cage doing the same things over and over and over. I have no desire to go back to the not knowing what I am made of, where I have come from and where I am heading.

These small plateaus are needed, they are resting places for our souls. In this time and space where things happen so much more quickly than before. Where our desires are manifested with speed because we truly believe in them. We need these small breaks as a time to see what we have done, to understand what we must do next. To know that we are truly on the right path. They make us think, they make us question. They make us understand the depths we are to strive for and the heights we can achieve.

And so, as I rest upon my plateau and dream of all still to be achieved. I watch the world around me try to break free from the hold of the mundane and the ordinary. I wait to see those souls who finally see the truth of their being come alive, to wake up and be aware of what surrounds them. Then onwards I will go again. Moving towards the next level of my incarnation. The next lesson to learn and achieve and the next plateau of understanding and rest.

Never doubt your journey nor your place. For within these rest periods lie the seeds of the greatness you are yet to become. Be thankful for the chance to stop and see what, where and how you have become you, and to see your next goals and dreams appear before you. Go with the magic that runs through your veins. The power and the passion of the source of all around you. Breathe it in and allow it to merge with your soul as you ride this journey home.

Margaret ❤

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