Well the new year is now well underway and from my perspective there has been a change in the energy. Going from the stagnant thick and dense energy of the years end to a much lighter and more positive energy has been worth the wait.
Since my fall in the last few days of 2016 I have had more blood tests in order to find out what is causing all my pain. The results have come back with Rheumatoid Arthritis. Now I am waiting for an appointment with a specialist to see just what can be done. At the moment though, it means no working. which is making things very hard.
The rent and bills are still needing to be paid so I am still trying to sell the things I own in order to do so. Centrelink has finally come through with new start assistance but as the payment does not even cover my rent, things are still very stressful. Selling my possessions is still going to have to happen to get through this period. Until I see the specialist and get confirmation and treatment, I won’t know where I stand.
Not being able to apply for or actually do a new job is also on my mind. I get bored very easily and these last 4 months at home have been hard. Everyone loves to have a break from work but when it is forced on you it makes a difference. Whether or not I will ever be able to rejoin the normal workforce is something that will be decided by the specialist.
For the moment I am trying to find out as much as I can about this illness. I know that it is not curable at this time but I need to find out what I can do to help myself. The better I take care of myself the faster I will be able to get my life back on track.
While I wait for things to sort out I will try to concentrate on the course and book that I have planned. For the last couple of stressful weeks they have taken a back seat as I tried desperately to get the money I needed. Family have come to my rescue this month and for that I will be eternally grateful.
There have been moments where I thought, I give up. Nothing seemed to be going okay and nothing was working in my favor. Giving up though, is failure and that is not an option for me at this time in my life. I do have the advantage of being able to look at different options. Although I have been banned from working for the next couple of months at least, there is always something that I can learn which may help in forming some sort of home based income that will allow me to live while I heal.
So onwards and upwards, as this new year energy swirls around me, I intend to take advantage of it. I know that things will work out eventually. What I have asked for has happened and what I now ask for will happen. I now understand how being vague in my thoughts and ideas have lead to where I am today. From now on I intend to be more precise with what I ask for and allow the universe to improve upon my ponderings.
Be specific in what you ask for otherwise, while you may get what you ask for, you may get it in a completely different way to what you thought. I asked to be free of my job, I am. I asked for a rest, I got it. What I forgot to make clear was that I required a new job that suited my abilities and for the rest to be a healthy one instead of a forced recovery one.
Think about what you want. Be specific in what you want, then leave it all up to the universe to make your life even better than you could have imagined. What may seem like doom and gloom for me now, has the potential to turn into the best thing that ever happened to me. No more poor me, from now on it is all about using this experience as a spring board to the life I have always dreamed of.
Think about your own life. What has or is happening that you could use to make the leap into your perfect life. Find something that impels you to make a better choice, to take a bigger chance, to think a little clearer. Then go for it!