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Choosing The Good Thoughts

Well hasn’t this year moved fast? February already and still most of us are trying to process the year just gone. Before we know it we will be celebrating another new year.

When another month begins I always have the feeling that I have wasted the month just gone. I have so many things that I want to do, need to do and plan to do and then time just gets away and the month is over.

I am a list maker, but over the last year or so my list writing has stopped. While I no longer have a pile of exercise books full of my hopes, dreams, wants and needs, I sort of miss the cathartic experience of just writing things down.

Earlier this year I started a the 30 Days to Love Your Life course by Mike Dooley. The creator of Notes from the Universe and the Tut Adventurers Club. While I was excited about it all it went in the end, the same way a lot of things have gone over the last two years. Another pretty notebook with the first 4 days done and then the doubts of what I had written and chosen crept in and I procrastinated on moving to the next lesson.

I still have the links and I really am determined to go through the whole 30 days at some point, but things happening around my family and my health have taken priority for the moment. Still I have used these excuses for so long that anything that I attempt in order to improve my life always falls back on them. I have so many links to websites and You Tube channels, Facebook pages, blogs and courses, that I will probably never have enough of this lifetime to get through them all.

The problem with having so many is that I don’t know which one to start first, and so I attempt to do many at once. All of which leads to a less than determined effort on my part to learn anything from them. There are so many different avenues of self improvement that it is hard to settle on the ones that really stand out for me. I start one and get bored very easily, especially if it is something that I have attempted before or know something about already.

So I have felt for a few months now, more than overwhelmed with my surroundings and my possessions, both physical and virtual. If I could I would just take my most treasured possessions and just walk away from the rest. My home has become cluttered with things I thought I needed or things that might be needed in the future. I look around and feel trapped by what before has brought me joy.

I always said that one day I will win a lottery and buy my own home, and I will get everything new for this home. Only taking that which is special or strongly sentimental with me. I pictured for years the rental homes I have lived in, being upended and everything falling out. Leaving a clean slate in which to start my life over with.

Well the lottery win has not happened, yet! But the urge to upend the house and start again has become much more strong than ever before. Those who know me or read my blog regularly know of my situation and that I am currently selling some of my possessions to cover bills while I sort out my health issues.

Seems to me that I have been again, given what I asked for. I wanted a clean slate and now I have to sell things to survive, which will leave me with not very many possessions at all. Ask and you are given, again I was not specific, another lesson in this.

I have to say though that the thought of everything I own going to a new home and leaving me with the space and sanity to create something new, is exciting. The chance to start my life over, although enforced, is something that I have wanted for such a long time. My life had become monotonous and the rut that I was in was getting deeper and deeper. So the illness, the joblessness and the forced decluttering of my home and mind was something that I had longed for and asked for many times.

Now the challenge lies in taking advantage of this opportunity. I have for months, been in a poor me mentality and finally now I understand the whys of the situation and the possibilities for the future. I have been told there is no cure for Rheumatoid arthritis, but that to me is a challenge and when I am challenged I will try everything I know to succeed.

For now, I will declutter my computer and choose only those files and folders that excite me, sell my possessions that no longer have a place with me and as I clear my life and mind, the new ideas and goals will come into view. As Mike Dooley says, “Thoughts do become things, so choose the good ones” The good ones are what I am now tuning into and what I will achieve.

For those interested in Mike’s Notes From the Universe and other courses and books.

http://www.tut.com/

https://www.facebook.com/mikedooley

Remember to always check your inner thoughts and if it is negative, change it because you always get what you ask for. Good or bad.

Margaret ❤

 

 

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A Change In Circumstances

Well the new year is now well underway and from my perspective there has been a change in the energy. Going from the stagnant thick and dense energy of the years end to a much lighter and more positive energy has been worth the wait.

Since my fall in the last few days of 2016 I have had more blood tests in order to find out what is causing all my pain. The results have come back with Rheumatoid Arthritis. Now I am waiting for an appointment with a specialist to see just what can be done. At the moment though, it means no working. which is making things very hard.

The rent and bills are still needing to be paid so I am still trying to sell the things I own in order to do so. Centrelink has finally come through with new start assistance but as the payment does not even cover my rent, things are still very stressful. Selling my possessions is still going to have to happen to get through this period. Until I see the specialist and get confirmation and treatment, I won’t know where I stand.

Not being able to apply for or actually do a new job is also on my mind. I get bored very easily and these last 4 months at home have been hard. Everyone loves to have a break from work but when it is forced on you it makes a difference. Whether or not I will ever be able to rejoin the normal workforce is something that will be decided by the specialist.

For the moment I am trying to find out as much as I can about this illness. I know that it is not curable at this time but I need to find out what I can do to help myself. The better I take care of myself the faster I will be able to get my life back on track.

While I wait for things to sort out I will try to concentrate on the course and book that I have planned. For the last couple of stressful weeks they have taken a back seat as I tried desperately to get the money I needed. Family have come to my rescue this month and for that I will be eternally grateful.

There have been moments where I thought, I give up. Nothing seemed to be going okay and nothing was working in my favor. Giving up though, is failure and that is not an option for me at this time in my life. I do have the advantage of being able to look at different options. Although I have been banned from working for the next couple of months at least, there is always something that I can learn which may help in forming some sort of home based income that will allow me to live while I heal.

So onwards and upwards, as this new year energy swirls around me, I intend to take advantage of it. I know that things will work out eventually. What I have asked for has happened and what I now ask for will happen. I now understand how being vague in my thoughts and ideas have lead to where I am today. From now on I intend to be more precise with what I ask for and allow the universe to improve upon my ponderings.

Be specific in what you ask for otherwise, while you may get what you ask for, you may get it in a completely different way to what you thought. I asked to be free of my job, I am. I asked for a rest, I got it. What I forgot to make clear was that I required a new job that suited my abilities and for the rest to be a healthy one instead of a forced recovery one.

Think about what you want. Be specific in what you want, then leave it all up to the universe to make your life even better than you could have imagined. What may seem like doom and gloom for me now, has the potential to turn into the best thing that ever happened to me. No more poor me, from now on it is all about using this experience as a spring board to the life I have always dreamed of.

Think about your own life. What has or is happening that you could use to make the leap into your perfect life. Find something that impels you to make a better choice, to take a bigger chance, to think a little clearer. Then go for it!

Margaret ❤

 

 

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